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The Call of Obedience
- MommaBlogga
- Jun 6, 2020
- 3 min read
It's been too long, friends. Too long, indeed.
This great nation we live in has been tense. That's stating the obvious. For the sake of sanity, I have been avoiding long sessions with the computer, and opted instead to stay outdoors with my littles.
Any chance I can get to be outdoors at ANY time, I will be. Especially when it's warm. Anyone else love the summer? I LOVE THE SUN! I enjoy most aspects of this season: the heat, the flowers, the water, the multiple outdoor activities. Summer is my jam.
Sunscreen and sweat. This will be the smell of my boys for the next few months. They shall wear it as a badge of happiness.
Sprinklers will be ran through, bikes will be ridden, pictures will be chalked across the driveway, soapy bubbles will be chased, and little bugs will be inspected with the utmost care.
Ahhhh, summer.
But summer can't help you hide forever. In regards to this tense atmosphere I have been avoiding... Let's be honest. I have not truly been avoiding it.
INTERJECTION: This is NOT a political post.
If you have looked at the news or social media at all in this past 2 weeks, the topic of racism in the US is unavoidable. Conversations are heated, passionate, and sadly sometimes full of hate.
As a police officer's wife, reading and hearing current opinions of the police force is shocking and sad. Like many others, I have been thrown on an emotional rollercoaster, experiencing anger, anxiety, sadness, and fear.
Struck with these strong emotions, I knew I needed to pray. This need felt so strong it was like a physical pressure on my body.
But I had no words. I had nothing.
I pleaded with the Lord to read my thoughts and my heart. This tank was empty. I felt stilted, stuck in my anxiety rather than uplifted like I usually do with prayer. I could still feel the Lord pulling me to Him. Asking - commanding - for more connection.
I did not listen. I went to social media, I went to the news. I fed my flesh. I fed my worries. I fed my fear.
God's calling to me grew and grew. I tried to pray throughout the day, but found no words yet again! I reached out to friends, begging them to pray for my husband and my family on my behalf. Surely, this would do it. Getting a prayer chain would ease this calling and tension I felt.
No. He called me still.
And still I did not listen.
At this point, I was carrying my bible room to room, with every intention of diving in -- but I felt frozen. And I found myself so easily distracted by my children or a chore.
This continued until last night. NO MORE, I thought. Why am I fighting this? I know God is calling me to His word.
I picked up the June Journey, a daily devotional for women (issued by LifeWay), to help me target a starting place and scriptural focus.
The Lessons God gave me through this devotional:
Acts 4:13 - If I want to be like Jesus, I must follow Jesus.
James 1:2-3 - There are many trials in this life, and with them I should strive for deeper faith and rejoice in this opportunity.
Psalm 84:11 - Sometimes God grants and sometimes God withholds, but His decision is always the right one.
2 Timothy 1:7 - Even if I am mistreated, God has granted me the Holy Spirit for strength and wisdom.
All of these are important to remember during any season of life, but especially ring true during the current climate.
I don't know why I fought it for so long. I can't remember the last time I struggled like this to read His word. But the devil knows when and what makes you weak, and pulls on these strings.
Friends, last night I finally obeyed, and today I immediately could tell the difference. The tug of the news was dulled. I felt physically lighter. I am happy just typing about it.
If you can relate to this post at all -- whether it be recent events in society, or perhaps a more intimate situation in your life -- if you can feel the call of the Lord, but have struggled with obedience, now is the time to listen.
When you feel your mind clouded with concerns of racial tension, societal hate, debates of passion... When you feel the weight of your heart grow heavy with a loved one's sorrow, the news of sickness and pain... Listen for the One Most High calling your name in obedience. Have faith friends, that nothing is beyond His reach or His power. He is the provider of peace and mercy.
Answer the call of obedience. You won't regret it!
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